I woke up sober today. This is how I feel.
Today I sit in Variety coffee off DeKalb, as I usually do on Tuesdays. It’s sort of become my latest thing since I’ve started drinking coffee again recently. I used to be an intense cappuccino addict, but then I moved to NYC and I felt kind of let down because the cappuccinos in Australia are truly the best, but that’s not why I stopped drinking them. I just went through a weird phase of feeling the effects of caffeine for the first time so I didn’t have a cup of coffee for about 7 months. So anyway, I am sitting in Variety and I got a text from my friend, enlightening me on the fact that she got smashed last night and feels embarrassed. I called her and we laughed about how she feels extremely hungover and I told her that it is probably due to the fact that she downed seven wines and that she has to trust me when I say, if I was there, I would have been 20 times more embarrassing.
I am the QUEEN of FOMO (Which I learnt means “fear of missing out”) and if I knew that there was going to be a bunch of mates at a bar last night, I probably would have gone. Sorry, let me rephrase that… I definitely would have gone. But, thankfully, I didn’t know and I went to bed at a reasonable time for the first time in my life. Op, I just realised my fly has been undone this whole time. Great! Life will always figure out a way to embarrass me, drunk or sober.
So, this is how it feels to not be the drunken idiot…
As I gaze out the window, searching for a really stimulating word…. Good, wholesome, relatively note-worthy.
Yeah, I feel productive as shit and highly motivated.
I’ve been watching to a lot of TED talks over the past few days because I’ve been kind of feeling like I’ve hit a ditch in the road and nothing is really moving forward in my life and let me tell you, they are encouraging as shit! I highly recommend watching some and I guarantee that no matter what part of life you want some inspiration in, there is a TED talk about it. So, by watching these TED talks, I’ve developed a stronger desire to make changes in my life. I want to binge drink less, therefore binge eat less, work harder (always), eliminate toxic influences and love myself more.
Working during the week will only continue to help me improve my lifestyle because of the fact that I crave work and I want to work hard. When I am sitting down doing nothing, I seek satisfaction elsewhere, aka a bar, but I mean come on, I’m young and I’m in New York City, it’s only fair that I enjoy doing things like getting drunk! I’m not by all means suggesting that I will never go out and drink again. I probably will tonight! What I am saying is, I am learning how good it feels to get a good night sleep and be productive and I know how it feels to wake up feeling like trash. So, I guess now I get to choose!
I guess the point of me writing all of this is that I wanted to say, the Queen of FOMO feels good about finally missing out and I believe that I am en route to my dreams and desires.